Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Babies....

Everyone I know is pregnant. Now today,I read a blog by a guy who (with his wife) is adopting kids...internationally. I really feel that we should be adopting. We started this before and had to drop it. I'm REALLY wanting to start again. I am not sure my husband would not blow a gasket right now....but. I don't know. I'm tired, I want a baby...or a kid....I don't know. I just feel this pull. I don't know what to do with it. Why doesn't somebody just drop their baby on my porch? I'd keep it....I keep all the dogs and kittens and lizards....whatever that people seem to leave!!! Lol! I'm sorry. Inappropriate humor. It's that time of day. Pray for me, for us. We're a bit discouraged in this church search thing and it's causing discouragement to float around in other areas of my life too. I'm ok, just need a boost.
J

5 comments:

Jen said...

Julie,
I can totally relate to your frustration!! I just had a similar conversation with Jessie recently. Mike and I are wondering and praying about adopting or not. Should we keep trying to have one of our own even after 2 miscarriages in 5 months. My doctor says he's not concerned but the constant question of will it happen again is in the back of our minds.

Anyway, I can understand your longing because Mike and I have it too. We just don't know why~~yet:~)

I'll be praying!!

Julie said...

thanks. I knew you had one miscarriage. Didn't know about the other. i can imagine your not knowing what to do. I had my tubes tied after Roger, so that's not even an option...of course w/me being 40 in March, I really don't think I'd want to do this biologically this time anyway!! : )
Julie

Luke Holzmann said...

[boost]

That's all I got, Julie. I'm in the middle of the process now, and I can relate to your feelings: Just give me kids! I want them now!

Of course, people tell me that God's timing is better, and all that, but it doesn't make me any less impatient.

Lord, I ask that You direct Julie and her family in the direction you want them to take, whatever that is. Give their clarity of thought and unification in will, and peace in the waiting. Amen.

~Luke

Jessie said...

I know several people that the Lord has opened that door for them to adopt.Some waited years and some did not have to eait quite so long. I will be praying for you and the desire that the Lord has laid on your heart. I takes such a special person/people to do such a wonderful and self-sacrificing thing. I'm sure the Lord has some wonderful plans in store for you!!!

Julie said...

Thanks guys. You are all awesome. We serve an awesome God and I know with Him all things are possible...I just get impatient1 We went as far before as picking the country (Ukraine), picking the agency (Bethany), and starting the pounds of paperwork. WE know God can and would just put the money there when we needed it, but stopped because with the church search, we were scared we'd be moving to a different state and have to start all over. Well, here we sit. Not moving, etc. Oh well. Luke--Thanks for your prayer. Thanks for taking the time to stop by! I'm tickled, actually. : ) I read a bunch on your blog other day. You're pretty funny sometimes! We splurged on a Wii for our middle child...ok, and my husband...we call it "physical therapy" when kid does it...."exercise" when us old people do it!LOL!
We're becoming more and more intimately involved with the "in God's timing." and "His timing is best". I really HATE being taught patience!!!
Thanks again.
julie